For You, Beautiful, Grieving Human on this, New Year's Eve
Dec 31, 2023![](https://kajabi-storefronts-production.kajabi-cdn.com/kajabi-storefronts-production/file-uploads/blogs/2147508375/images/3cbe40b-e4f-2fc4-8af7-26eddd8fd01_new_years_eve.jpg)
For you, beautiful, grieving human on this, New Year's Eve...
So, here we go...again.
New Year's Eve. And whether it's your first NYE without your person or your 25th, I want to honour you and the extra depth this day brings. A depth that many do not see.
You see, New Years has a way of seeping into us. It's traditionally a time of reflection, often seen as an opportunity to turn over a fresh page.
And the complexity of this within a season of deep grief, especially fresh grief, can often cut deep in a way that feels utterly invisible.
As merry-making and celebration surrounds, our grief may feel ever more stark.
If this is you, I see you, love.
My first NYE after Brian died, I didn't want the clock to strike twelve. I didn't want to enter a new year, a year that my love would never see.
I entered that first new year, kicking and screaming.
Now this will be my fifth time doing this new year's dance since Brian's been gone. Fifth. I barely believe those words as I see them here on the page.
And what I want to share, dear grieving soul, is that this year, I am truly looking forward to 2024.
I would have never believed this was possible if you'd told me five years ago.
And yet it's true. I am here, with my grief, gently, tenderly ushering in another year with excitement and a quiet knowing that I never had before.
I'm not naive about the possibility of more heartache. I know there will be moments that will bring me to my knees again. I do not subscribe to the belief that grief ends or that we overcome it.
But...
And...
I want to be here for it.
I want to continue to grow and serve you all. To be a friend and a mother and a human working towards the betterment of the world.
But more than that, I want to deepen the relationship I have with myself.
I turn 40 this year, something I never thought I'd do single or without some of the friends + family I've lost along the way since Brian's death.
And yet, I feel a sense of letting go happening. An acceptance of this life. And an ability to see the beauty even within the hardest of moments.
I see so much beauty in you.
In all of you who email me and reach out on social media, who join my groups + retreats. I see a well so deep, a source of strength that only comes from those who have dug the way we've all had to.
I see YOU, however this New Year's lands.
Thank you so much for being here.
Please keep going, we need you. The world needs you.
xoxo
Mira